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I used to believe and trust God. I read His words and try to do the best for him. But I find myself in a constant struggles and trials subdued me instead of me conquering it.

As i figured it out, I thought I’m good and things are great but I realized that something is missing and my life is empty. I don’t like years to slip away, while I’m in danger of wasting my life.

I am nothing I accepted it… Whatever I do,is just vain. The more I tried to be better, the more worst I became. Still, I refused, ignored and hide myself from Him. Now, I know its because I’m naturally bad. But not until I let God control my life.

God told me that I am special and He loved me so much: the reason why He gave His life for me. He lifted me and brought me to the light of truth. The truth that I had known ever since I was young but failed to live by countless times. I feel that I’m so doomed unaware, perhaps in denial that I’m painfully living a self-centered and sorrowful life until my eyes were opened and I realized that I needed Jesus in my life… my constant companion all along.. I have to believe and trust Him. Then, I listened to him…

and there He was…

He accepted me right away without hesitation and loved me unconditionally. His love has no limit, His love knows no bound!

I prayed to God silently and cried for forgiveness. Suddenly, things changed in me. I am a new person! The old me is vanished. He told me not to think of my past mistakes anymore because God has already erased it in His memory. He never holds grudges or ill feelings. He looked in my eyes and smiled at me and says that He loves me very much! He embraced me with open arms and He’s gentle touch moved me so much that all I could wish is to show Him how much I do love Him. I know my old self is gone. Thus, prayers and daily communion with His words remind me of His compassionate love.. and as the days go by, my relationship with Him continue to flourish like cherry-blossoms growing in the wild. I’m like a child who always stumble and fall but God is gracious and He is always there to lend a hand on me and carry me thru when I fall.

I am truly happy now. My existence has more meaning! He constantly reassures me of His love and providence. He brings back the life in me, the happiness, the joy of living, my life’s worth. I gained everything through Christ who gives me strength and hope. Life is much much more beautiful! I can’t imagine life without Him!

I still have plenty of challenges but God is bigger than them!

Things on this earth is changing, but the only constant one that never changes is God’s love for me and you! HE loves us all=) Amazing love how can it be?

I’ll always be thankful to Him for what He has done in my life; for the wondrous things that’s happening to our lives and those that is still to unfold; for giving me my wonderful husband; for giving me a supportive and caring family.. for giving me You… and the greatest gift God has given to us: our baby Nichole Breanna=)

I will praise Him and honor Him as long as I live!